Personal Thoughts

little lost boy

~ Susan Jarreau ~ 3 Comments

Little lost boy in your sad little world what happened to your dreams? You were going to conquer the world and follow the path to the end of the rainbow. But somewhere on your journey you got lost, off track, miles off course and adrift at sea. Now you struggle to find your way back to the safety of the shore, so many anchors weighing you down. The melancholy sound of a foghorn cuts through the thick night air and a dim light from a distant lighthouse gives you a faint hope. But you have to save yourself, little lost boy. You have to save yourself.

Bittersweet Goodbye

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How do you say good-bye to an old friend? A person you thought you knew, one you could count on to get you through the hard days. The days when you wanted to give up and curl into a ball and stop living. The one person who could make you smile when all you wanted to do was cry. The person whose laugh could instantly erase the demons from your mind. The person you turned to when you had nobody else. The person who would always say yes when the world said no. How do you say “I don’t want you in my life any more” when it only breaks your heart to feel this way?

Good-bye old friend. I will miss you. But I’m a better person for knowing you.

Ode to Me

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I sit alone. Fiercely proud of where I am, the obstacles I have overcome, the challenges I have met. Some I have faced with help, but too many I have faced alone. Like a cherub meeting Satan face to face, toe to toe. Not quite a fair fight, a scrap to be sure. I’ve always come out of it alive, but, unscathed? No, I have my scars. Some visible and some hidden far from sight; I’m careful to keep those from view. Too many questions and my world might come unhinged. Still, I’m here. Alone, but proud of where I am and how far I’ve come.